Wet like a cherry...

more lyrics

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 14:48:15 GMT

Lyrics that I'm gonna try and post again...no promises

"Left Alone"

Walking silently down hallways
passed corridors
next to millions of people
laughing and smiling

But I am alone
friendless and forgotten
nobody cares
everyone sees beyond me

Chorus:Lost and alone
feelings of loneliness
tears cover my eyes
so I don't have to see the smiles

Sitting alone
at an empty table
broken inside
and left alone

Where is the one
to stand by my side?
When I need you, you're gone
I'm open inside

Why do you leave me
alone to cry
in shivering darkness
I make my final cry

chorus

"Tears of Frustration"

You look at me
and think horrible thoughts
like you are disgusted with me
repulsed to call me your son

You don't know
what's really going on
and you never will
because you don't listen

chorus: I want you to leave me alone
Get out of my face
turn from my eyes
because they burn holes in my soul

You make me feel small
for things I can't help
you say you love me
while I cry tears of frustration

I don't know
what you want me to do
change my feelings
is not something I can will

You know it's not my fault
and it doesn't change me as a person
So how I am in your eyes
shouldn't change either

but it does, and it's you
not me

"Untitled"

So you've played your little mind games
And this time it's your last
You want it to end
fine

I can live with that
I can be strong and get through
it's not like it's the first time
for this to happen to me or you

chorus: Everything you say
is a lie
you can't be trusted
and i'm sorry

How could I trust you
whenI know it's all a lie
I know it could all end up
the way it was

I can't deal with this anymore
I'm tired of it
the drama has to stop
I'm walking out the door

and you're behind it
or in front, who knows anymore

"The Person I Was"

You think I'm changing
or I've already metamorphed
and maybe I am
so what?

How dare you try to tell me
who I'm supposed to be
and bring up people
who you say see me differently

chorus:How do you think you know
who I am?
I don't even know
who I'm going to be

I struggle everyday
trying to find myself
and all you want is to find
the person I was

Let me tell you now
that you don't know me
and all you want to do
is talk

I'll open myself up to you
when I feel that you can be trusted
bur right now
I'm not that secure

So you can stop with all your lame talks
because I really don't want them
all I really want
is for you to leave me alone

and let me find myself on my own

chorus

"I'll get you"

I know who I am
and I know what I want
so don't get in my way
or I'll knock you down

Whatever I want
I work hard to get
and whatever I have
was given to me

chorus: I'm a very determined person
just so you know
and I want you
so I'll get you

You can be sure of that (repeat 2x's)

I'll look into your eyes
and make you fall in love with me
and I'll gently kiss your lips
and have you begging for more

Don't underestimate
the control I have
because if I want you,
yea, I'll get you

chorus

lyrics of a sad, lonely boy

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 05:01:00 GMT

Here are two lyrics about two very different people in my life. I'll post many more later because I just closed the window by mistake and don't feel like reposting all of them right now.

"A Familiar face is the last one"

We grew up together
from day one
we knew we'd be friends
someone to always rely on

Growing up in the same schools
we had the same friends
and everything was good
it all felt so right

chorus: But now we're older
and we're still good friends
like we always knew
we would be

but now things are changing
and I've finally realized
and admitted
that your familiar face is the
one I want to kiss

Being together for so long
things just got so comfortable
and dating was always a mess
no one came along as good as you

but we've always been just friends
and yet you know everything about me
more then any girl will ever know
so would it be so bad to be together?

chorus

They say friends are the best lovers
this is true
at least it is
for me and you

"Beyond Control"

You ruin everything
anything I want, you hate
thoughts of yourself
are all that live inside your mind

You piss me off constantly
and I still run back to you
I hate every part of me
for being that weak

chorus: You rub me
like no other
and make every bone in my body
ache

My head pounds
whenever I'm with you
my heart turns cold
and my words become viscious

You know the ways to hurt me
and you use them daily
bringing my world to an end
so I have to submit to you

Sometimes I really hate you
and it makes me hate myself
how can you push all my buttons
the wrong way?

chorus

Courage

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 14:58:41 GMT

Flames lick the faces of the men
tearing at their flesh
trying to consume them into the heat of the night
where water seems to be a joke
as the fire laughs at the attempts
to scorch out
saving the lives of the innocent
is the job these men are called to do
rescuers
life savers
incredibly powerful, yet human men
risking their lives for others
surrounded by the intense heat
and thick smoke
so much so that they cannot see
and we sit and wait
day by day, looking out the window
praying that we don't see the red car coming up the drive

Over

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 13:36:16 GMT

I'm alone in this dark world
with no one to hold my hand
and tell me everything is going to be alright
I cry my tears of blood
for my eyes have been shattered
by the painful images I see
of people walking away from me
and leaving me cold and alone
Everything that I once knew
no longer exists
the people I loved
have come to hate me
and I loathe them
for their unwillingness to try
and their blindness that they cannot overcome
when it comes to seeing who I really am
they are lost
and so am I
but neither of us can see
or even try to find our way back home
to where we used to be
when everything was so much easier
and we felt alive
not always dead to each other
but basking in each other's glory
and feeling the warmth of friendship and love
that's all melted away now
and there's nothing left but bitterness
lies
secrets
it's all ending so quick
and I don't even care
It's time to start a new life
for in this one,
I'm dying

Alive

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 02:32:43 GMT

Breathing just to stay alive
a world gone into darkness
living in heat and sweat
sticky chairs and moist beds of sweat
living in hell for six long days
No air movement through the air
just stillness
solitude
early nights for misery sweeps over
cards with family, laughing
accidents, death and destruction
waiting for the one who holds the light in his hand
to restore it to our darkend eyes
our darkened world
where will we go from here?
I need to feel normal again
cut off from the world we know
foreigners in our own towns
in our own homes
tripping over objects strewn across the floor
in the light, we did not see them
running into walls of our homes
ones we have passed dozens of times each day
now we truly know
who the fortunate ones our
this country

blah

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 06:27:31 GMT

Contentment
sadness
happiness
anger
frustration
regret
happiness
ecstasy
happiness
moving in and out
of all these moods
is too much to handle
I want to pick one
and stay with it
preferbly being happy

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 22:22:04 GMT

Finding the one
that perfect soul
the one who completes you
it doesn't seem real
when you think you've found them
you think something has to go wrong
and it always does
everytime, except once
when you actually find them
so don't close yourself off to others
just because you fear disappointment
or failure
or being hurt
because all those ups and downs you have
all the lost hopes
and changed dreams
all the losses
and heartaches
they all build you up
after they've torn you down
to open your eyes wider
and when you find that person
you will instantly know
b/c of your past experiences
and you will know how to respect them
and treat them in the way they deserve
b/c you've waited so long for them
and after all, they are the only person
who truly make you happy
so hold onto them, tight
and never let go

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 13:23:46 GMT

Standing alone
outside
blowing winds
pounding rains
swirling leave
booming thunder
cracking lightening
soon it will all be over
but when will it start?
and where will we be
when it dies?
alone and cold
emtpy
afraid
lost
without hope
without home
debris strewn all across the roads
our own town
unrecognizable
like a ghost town
from the winds of the devil

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 19:12:44 GMT

I lay down
sitting upright
but asleep
in my mind
you are consuming me
with every thought I have
of you
brings more pain
and remorse
I can't live this way
open up my chest
and take out my heart
so I won't hurt anymore
having no feeling
will be better
then crying tears
of death

another round

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 19:05:12 GMT

Time for more lyrics...these are some that I've started in my second book of lyrics....

"48 hours of Heaven"

You came into my life
not so long ago
but I felt an instant attraction
and a connection I never felt before

We had our ups and downs
but the ups were worth the downs
I thought I'd found you
the one I saw within my dreams

chorus:It's been the best 48 hours of heaven
not a moment went by
that I wasn't thinking of you

Soft kisses on my lips
warm embraces through the night
my memories of you
will never fade from sight

the days seemed too perfect
something must go wrong
the distance between us
is why I wrote this song

though we're far apart
you're in each thought I have
you will never leave my heart
and we will be together

I want you
and I won't give up
you are my reason
to get up each day

chorus

"Broken for the last time"

We shared an amazing thing
our love for each other
kisses and affection]that were so powerful

things that cannot be bought
but are desired most
were the only gifts
you gave to me

chorus: I've been broken for the last time
now I'm like an unused toy
you gave me a reason to live
and it's been taken away

this heart of mine
will never mend
and my love will never fully be given
to any other

it's only for you

I cannot sleep
and my body's tired
my thoughts of you
keep me awake

all that we shared
are the things I cherish most
I'll never let them go
and as a result, I'll be left alone

chorus

"Memories never fade"

Looking into your eyes
so deep
It was as if
we could see each other's histories

hearing your heartbeat
sounding in my ear
knowing it was beating for me
as mine beats only for you

chorus: the most beautiful images
that I have ever seen
are when I'm picturing you
in my memories

everything was so right
your smile, your eyes, your laugh
it was like being with an angel
with an amazingly beautiful soul

You are my one
I know it's true
someday we'll be together
nothing can stop us two

but for now I sit and wait
until we are united
together as one
forever, never letting go

"Now I know"

I have never been in love
until now
I never knew the effects it had
the incredible joys, and the devastating sorrows

I didn't understand before
why other's would get so upset
when they could no longer be with someone
or why it caused so much pain

chorus:Now I know
and I can't forget
how love can effect you
and change your life

For now I'm in love
or close to it
and I've never felt
so many emotions at once

The joy it brought me is amazing
like I was living in a dream
and now the heartache I feel
has caused me to cry in a different way

I didn't expect any of this
I certainly don't regret it
I love you, truly
my heart is for you

chorus

"A paradise of Euphoria"

the way you took my hand in yours
so suddenly, yet I kept waiting for you to
the way you pulled me close
letting us brush against each other

the way you caressed my hand
as you held it in yours
the way you touched me
and made me laugh

chorus: Take all of me
my love, my heart, my soul
I'm giving it all to you
because you have made me whole

I want us to be together
to feel as one
I want you, to want me
so take all of me, not just some

the way your lips
traced the outline of mine
so soft and full
tasting your soul and giving you mine

the way you kissed me
so gently and so pure
the shaking of your lips on mine
making me crave more

chorus

the way you pulled me close
lying next to you
with your arms around my chest
holding my heart in place

the way you shared the pillow
and saying, "this is the best thing I've ever shared"
the way you fell asleep
cuddled next to me

I wished it would never end

chorus

the way you wanted me to stay
to stay and move in with you
I wanted to say yes and never go home
because I want to be there with you

the way you looked into my eyes
and knew my every thought
the gentleness and kindness you possess
you're all I need to know

"a Simple Kiss"

A kiss
simple and true
pure bliss
when two lips meet

Lingering souls
set ablaze
on fire with love
from one simple kiss

chorus:the simple kiss
you placed upon my lips
the one that can only be given
to the person it's meant for

Hidden in the corner
of your simple lips
beautiful, waiting
to be discovered by love

"Just Let Go"

There are troubles you've seen
that are unbelievable
I cannot understand your survival
you are so strong

at times you have fallen
and been left alone
but remember my love for you
will never falter

chorus:When things go wrong
and troubles dominate your mind
just close your eyes and dream of me
and I'll be there with a new day

Fall into my arms
if this world is too much
I'll catch you each time
and never let you go

Sleep your troubles away
as you lay in my arms
I'll love you always
and it will be enough

Kiss my lips that yearn for you
feel my heart beating with your life
and you will be with me, happy
always and forever

"All I Have to Give"

The air that is in my lungs
the blood flowing in my veins
the beating of my heart
is all I have to give to you

the air that I breathe
the strength in my body
the smile on my lips
is everything you give to me

chorus:the hardest thing to do
is give myself to you
I fear that I'll be hurt
and only dream of you

so all that I can give
is what I cherish most
my love and all of me
for without you, I can't live

the blinking of my eyes
the tears running down my cheeks
you wipe away with your soft touch
and take away all the lies

I love you deeply
madly
completely
come rescue me

chorus

"First Time"

Your lips trembled upon mine
the first time we kissed
and your arms trembled
the first time you held me

Your eyes were so strong
the first time they stared into mine
and your hand waivered
the first time you tried to hold mine

chorus: All this trembling
made it so much better
I knew you were romance
and it made me want you more

You aren't afraid
to show your emotions
and I love that most
about you

You were so gentle
each and everytime we kissed
and so strong
whenever you held me

Your arms were laced with love
and your lips had passion
I'll never forget
how it was the first time

chorus

"Ch-ch-ch-Changes"

One day I love you
the next day you're gone
one day we're together
then I'm alone

I have a great friendship
and am blessed with many friends
then next week
I have only one

chorus: Things change so quickly
like the changing of tides
people come into my life
leaving everlasting marks

then it is time
for the tide to go out
and everything that I know
is gone without a trace

Love is forever
so I haven't found it yet
but it hurts just as much
to lose something you thought you had

I'm alone again
the tide has gone out
I fear that it will come in
and bring back nothing

chorus

"Stay the night"

As we layed on your bed
holding hands tight
with your hand caressing my face
and mind running through your hair

I was falling asleep in your arms
wrapped so perfectly around me
I wanted to stay
but I had to go

chorus:If I would have just
stayed the night
I wouldn't feel so alone
you are everything I want
and everything I know

I never wanted to leave
I'll come back to you
and we'll again be together
forever

I'll stay the night

I shared your pillow
but wanted you
you have me
and I think I have you

it was too perfect, thank-you
I'll be back to stay

chorus

"Should Have"

The last time we were together
I should have held your hand
the last time I saw you
I should have stared into your eyes

the last time I was near you
I should have held you close
the last time I saw you
I should have taken in your scent

chorus: But i didn't, and I regret it
I've no one to balme but me
I should have done so many things
but I didn't

If I could just relive it
I'd do it all so different
I wouldn't let one moment
go unwasted

the last time I was near you
I should have said it all
I should have told you how I felt
of how I was falling in love

the last time we were close
I should have kissed your lips
I should have hugged you
with all I had

chorus

but I didn't, I just walked away
and we did nothing
because of fear
and I regret it

"Not what I thought"

The moment you spoke
on the other end of the phone
I knew you were right
the one for me

When you drove by
and got out of your car
I knew you were it
the one I wanted to see

chorus: you seemed so right
but you were so wrong
you blinded me
by your false personality

How can I be so dumb?
I'm so naive
gotta open my eyes and see
who people really are

When I first saw your face
and looked into your eyes
I knew I wanted you
and nobody else

You were so beautiful
and I dreamed of nothing
but having my lips
on your lips

chorus

It's all over now
because you deserted me
guess I wasn't enough
to make you love me

chorus

"Tragic Ending"

Dreams end when you awake
and fairytales don't exist
happy endings aren't as they seem
behind veils lie tears

not everyone ends up happy
very few actually
the endings we hear of
and see, are just stories or movies

chorus: I want a dream
where I don't awake
and I want my own
fairytale ending

but those don't exist
in our world today
bitter lies
and tragic endings

but I'll settle for you
because you're all that I've got
and that's enough
for me to breathe

You are as close
as I'm gonna get
to being happy
so come with me

chorus

ok, that's that

help

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 20:19:27 GMT

everyone, my other journal name is ocean_ave19, and I just put up a post there, and i need your help, so everyone who reads this journal, check out that one and help me out, please! Thanks :)

Blah

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 02:29:00 GMT

I hate this feeling
of not knowing what to do
I can't control what's inside of me
so why do people walk around
looking at me with faces
of disgust
or disappointment
and don't see the guilt in my eyes
or the pain in my heart
because it's clenched between my teeth
you just look at me
and listen to me, vaguely
thinkin of nothing but yourself
you don't think of how it's making me feel
tearing me up inside
slowly eating away at my insides
until I'm left for the vultures
having them pick away at my flesh
right now, that seems better
it seems better then looking at you
listening to you
and the thoughts in my head
and the feelings in my heart
all of it
I want out
never to return in my head again
but it will haunt me
for all the days of my life
and will never go away
so instead of thinking about how you feel
think of how I feel
I'm the one who actually carries the burden
not you
not my parents
not my friends
me
it's not about you
it's about me
and I wish people would understand
that whatever they are feeling
I am feeling it worse
the effects are eating away my brain
there's nothing left
I'm dying

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 05:06:01 GMT

Frustration
my eyes see and feel pain
the tears sting as they roll down my cheeks
I'm so confused, lost in a world without light
trying to do what I feel is right
but losing the battle everytime
without a fight
Pushing feelings aside
living a lie
false love
hope
pride
I'm losing my temper
shut up, now
I'm not taking this anymore
I don't have to answer
I'm not clear on things myself
so how the hell am I suppose to tell you?
You tell me that
stop thinking of you
the world doesn't exist for your pleasure
so get over yourself
I have problems too
and I don't want to talk to you about them
so stop pushing me
before I take my eyes out
and cut off my ears
leaving trails of blood
like bread
to my mangled and lonely
body

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 15:53:42 GMT

There's a stone that's been placed in the hole of my heart
that you shot with a gun
to keep the air from piercing my soul
I bite on the bullet that you shot me with
to ease the pain
as the blood trickles down my chest
leaving me drenched in red
you watch me bleed
and you help me die

yet more lyrics

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 23:16:35 GMT

ok, I'm gonna try and post the rest of my lyrics, from one of my books anyhow. Here you go....

"Dollar Bills and Empty Souls"

In the age of greed
all has been lost
humanity has fallen out of touch
with reality

Inplace of warm embraces
are given expensive gifts
the men who use to come home early
have now abandoned their family

Chorus: There's so much more
then empty people
and their empty conversations
more then the riches of the world

Let's speak of families and togetherness
instead of stock market increases
let's talk about how out love has grown
instead of our wallets

Empty people living empty lives
a whole within our souls
Feeling like air blowing through a cavity
tearing us up inside

chorus

"All for you"

Whatever it is you want me to be
I'll be it
Whoever you dream you want me to be
I'll be him

I just look into your eyes
and it makes me want you
We dance in the street
to music in our hearts

Chorus: All the things I am
are for you
everytime I take a breath
it's because of you

Everytime my lips part to smile
it's from thoughts of you
everything I have to give
is all for you

Trusting me is hard for you
as we lay in the deserted street
but hold my hand and never let go
and you'll know what it's like to be free

I'll take you to my secret place
where I can come alive
where all my thoughts and sweetest dreams
are all for you to keep

chorus

We'll make love in a beat up house
and then we'll have to part
but nothing can keep us apart
because of the love that's in our heart

You are my soul, my guidance
my breath, my heart
all that makes me live
lives on because of you

and we will never be apart

"Seventh Heaven"

Happiness is not measured by the amount of smiles you make
cause I can fake smiles too
and it's not measured by the number of friends you make
cause they can make you unhappy too

It's shown by the laughs you share
when you're just sitting there
talking, breathing, being
not having a care

chorus: Too much in the world today
is filled with deceit and lies
empty thoughts sugar coated
hid behind fake smiles and eyes

the true test of happiness
can be seen in just a glance
that glowing radiance
that can never burn out

walks together with someone you love
sleepovers with best friends
lying in bed staring into her eyes
things dreams are made of

True happiness really does exist
behind empty liquor bottles
and inside empty cases of pills
waiting to be set free

chorus

We are part of a dying world, help it before we lose it all(3X)

"With You"

My heart is whole
with you
it cries out
without you

I don't wanna be alone
and i am, with anyone but you
I've had a million kisses
now I just want yours

chorus: I miss you
I cry for you
i'm on my knees
come back

I want you
I scream out
I'm kicked out
I'm cried out

I reach out for you
you let your hand slip away
you turn to leave
you're walking away

I lie in bed
feel your warm embrace
but it's ghostly
because you aren't here

chorus

I made sacrifices for you
excuses for you
everything for you
just give me your heart

come back
I need you
don't leave me here
touch me now, don't let me cry
my love

I'm so in love with you
i can't breathe without you
I know you feel it too
so don't walk away

"Starry-Eyed Longing"

I'm lying in bed
thinkin' of you
and all those naughty things
I wanna do with you

The way your hips sway
drives me crazy
I'm in a state of ecstasy
and even without a drug

chorus: I love you more then life itself
and I wanna wait
I'll wait for you, I'll wait for me
because of the promise we have made

but inside me lives a passionate, sensual person
yearning to be free
to touch your smooth face
and caress your inner thighs

I know it sounds so dirty
but that just isn't true
my love for you makes it beautiful
not ugly or untrue

chorus

I posess an ardent avidity to be with you
I want you to take all of me
and I want to hold all of you
in my arms, forever

and never let go
the beast in me has escaped

"All the things I've never said"

There are so many things I need to say
that I keep locked away inside
in fear of being hurt or rejected
by the ones that I love

the wind blows through my soul
from the crack within my heart
I'm like an old hotel room
people checking in, others checking out

chorus:Inside, something is yearning
screaming
dying
crying out

it needs to be free
alive
forgiven
and known

I'm like the cowardly lion
who just needs a little courage
but my lips feel like they are glued together
everytime I try to speak

I guess this secret will just stay
within me

chorus

"Deceptive Smiles"

Everyday is just the same
awake in bed, a bitter mess
and then fall to the floor
breathing in the dirt from the carpet

Brush my teeth and take a shower
to get ready for no one
time to go out into the world
to fake a smile

chorus:A broken and empty heart
is all I have for you
but instead of showing you how I feel
I slap on a happy grin

These fake smiles
and chipper moods
are starting to wear me out
how long until they are real?

Maybe if I fake enough
my emotions will become true
once I've had enough
of never getting you

but until I can find
whatever I'm searching for
I can give you nothing more
then these sad, deceptive smiles

chorus

"Poison"

You are the apple
that was given to snow white
you put her in harm
until someone broke your charm

You are the spindle
that pricked sleeping beauty's finger
leaving her to sleep alone
until the day she was discovered

chorus:You are the poison
that I drink each time we kiss
killing me little by little
until there's nothing left

You are the drug
that I'm addicted to
no matter how hard I try to stop
I keep coming back to you

When Romeo bought his poison
you were the merchant who sold it
and you helped Juliet
push the dagger into her stomach

I can feel the toxins in my lungs
when your lips are on mine
eating away my insides
softly faking away my life

chorus

"Fading too slow"

Thoughts of you pop in my head
at every point of the day
haunting me with past memories
and leaving me stuck in one place

I can't move forward, and I don't wanna go back
but my thoughts of you just won't leave
my mind is filled with nothing
yet you still manage to penetrate the barrier

chorus: Get outta my head
stop piercing my heart
I need you to leave
before you tear me apart

Just go, walk out the door
don't turn around
make it easier
you're fading too slow

There was something about you
I just couldn't forget
the way your lips curled
when you got mad at me

or the sound of your voice
when you'd call my name
memories that I don't need
just keep me down

chorus

"Stranger in this Body", or "Not a good fit"

Ordinary hair
ordinary eyes
one ordinart day after another
can't take one more of those

Pieces of my ordinary body
lay along the ordinary path
I take to my ordinary job
are you seeing a pattern here?

chorus: I'm waiting for the day
when something happens
to take me away
from all this routine

Everyday planned out
nothing new ever comes my way
I'm stuck inside
and ordinary life...
or so I thought

My days are filled with ordinary things
but I don't have ordinary friends
each on is unique
and adds something diff't to my life

I have no ordinary family
we actually get along
instead of hatred
we have love, as ironic as that seems

chorus

My life is anything
but ordinary

"thought I knew"

I thought I knew them
thought I knew HER
I didn't think she'd turn them away
didn't think they would

Guess I was blinded
by false love and lies
I didn't really know those people
and they didn't know me

chorus: You were a cold-hearted bitch
and I'll never get over it
You don't deserve to have me back
even though you never had me at all

We were friends, that's it
never anything more
but you couldn't accept that
you had to try and score

I found out who loved me
and stayed by my side
the ones who didn't
were just saying goodbye

I'm better off without them
people who don't care
I'll move on
and forget they were there

chorus

"It's all too Calm"

Destruction and tradgedy have struck
howling winds and torrential rains
Lives overturned
deaths of many

It all happened so quick
we didn't have time to prepare
an experience that let's us know
we have to be ready to go

chorus:Lives were lost
and homes were shattered
hearts were broken
we pay the cost

but who all died
we may never know
there could be bodies
undiscovered

What if she got it?
And what if she died?
How would I survive?
Pick up and move on with my life?

I don't know if i could
I think she was
my first love
the one you never forget

chorus

I can't forget
sleep well, my angel

"Saving"

I have never experienced death
though I've dealt with many losses
they've left marks on my heart
that will never fully heal

Loss of friendships
loss of dreams
reality's a bitch sometimes
or though it seems

chorus:but everything will be ok
or everything will never be ok
I'm saving all my hopes and dreams
for the day I'm finally free

break these chains that bind me here
run out into the street
shouting at the top of my lungs
for someone to come save me

Misery is upon me
more often then not
bringing me down
and lifting me up

Believe in yourself
trust in your dreams
one day they'll come true
and you can finally be happy

chorus

"Holding True"

Yea, I'm the guy who makes the promise
and actually holds true
I'm the one who gives respect
and spoils the hell outta you

I'm the guy who kisses you
with passion in my lips
and I'm the one who speaks to you
with love inside my heart

chorus:I'm the one that you want
the one all the girls look for
but while you're out with guys that lie
I'm at home, laying on the floor

You're together
while I'm alone
what's goin' on?
something's wrong here

It is me that holds you close
with no intentions of letting go
and I'm the one who respects your wishes
and hold some of my own

I'm the guy that you want
yet I am still alone

chorus

"To be with You"

There's nothing that I wouldn't do
to simply be with you
I'd fight your battles
and steal your heart

I'd make false words roll off my tongue
and create an utter lie
or if it meant I'd be with you
I'd never tell a lie

chorus:I'd do anything
just to be with you
no taks too big or small
just to look into your eyes

because your words are my food
and your breath is my life
without you
I would die

If you were in danger
I'd gladly take a knife for you
to protect you from any harm
and still, I'd be complete

I'd place all your burdens on me
so you never have to feel one ounce of pain
for if you cried while looking in my eyes
my world would surely end

chorus

"nothing"

You and I were so good together
I was happier then ever
Everyday I saw you
was worth another day to live

Quiet talks on deserted shores
waves crashing on the rocks
simple kisses that meant more
then anything in the world

Chorus:I loved you
and I gave you my heart
but all you could think to do with it
was tear it apart

I saw you with him
kissing his lips
and my heart crumbled for a while
but now I feel nothing

Not a tear will I cry for you
now that I know you're not worth it
and my heart will not break for you
cause I won't allow you to hurt it

all the years, living in fake reality
from all your sweet talk
I was the fool, I fell for you
but now I've picked myself up

and....
chorus

"Leave love behind"

You were an angel
that was put into my life
I loved you from the moment my eyes
laid upen you, and still I do

Always trying to get you to notice me
and failing with every attempt
falling so quickly and hard for you
without you feeling it back

chorus: While I'm jumping up in front of you
screaming out my lungs
you pass on by with the others
and leave your love behind

Cause I know you love me too
and you're just afraid to show it
because you're afraid I won't be true
but how could I not, when I love you?

You knew I was in love with you
and that you were in love with me
and still you turned and walked away
pretending not to see

but it's alright, I'll be strong
I'll just sit and wait
because in my heart, and in yours too
burns our love that's just as strong

chorus

"Scraped lips and a bruised heart"

You led me on to believe
that you cared for me
and you told me bitter sweet lies
and fed my soul with a kiss

was it all a part of your plan
to build me up, then push me down?
Because I hit the ground with a crash
and you were nowhere to be found

chorus: Your lips on mine
felt wonderful
and your love around my heart
felt wonderful

until you pushed me to the ground
leaving my lips scraped
and your clentched fist left my heart
with no more then brusies

How could you lie to me
and make me feel alive
and then be honest with me
and leave me alone to die?

Your heart is made of stone
and your body is ice cold
you strung me along
and then you set me free

chorus

"Waking up on the brightest day"

Waking up on a friday morning
the sun burns in my eyes
but slowly I emerge from bed
squint my eyes and scratch my head

the sun isn't so bright anymore
something's in the way
it's you, my love
waiting for me, and now I'm ready

chorus: You were there all along
You never left my side
You knew I needed time
and you waited

now the time has come
where I'm ready to say those words
the three you've been waiting for
"I love you", and I mean it

You're here
You're real
i'm here
I'm real

and out love is here and real, forever

"Lost it all"

The day I said I loved you
was the most exciting day
for the minute it lasted
until you took your last breath

I think you were in shock
and wonderfully surprised
for at the moment I uttered those words
you fell down at my feet

chorus: I thought you were kidding
playing one of your jokes on me
but I trued helping you up
and you went limp

I picked you up
and held you in my arms
I knew then
that the feelings must have been too strong
cause you were gone

I screamed at you
shouted at you
smacked you across the face
yelling in your ear with pain in my shaky voice

Dead
gone
never
alive

I'm screaming
I'm crying
I'm shouting
I'm dying
for you, to come alive
pierce my soul

chorus

ok, that's my first book, haha

lyrics

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 15:39:46 GMT

Here are more lyrics....

"Already Gone"

I'm stuck here waiting
'til the day when I'll be free
away from here and on my own
never heard from again

I walk these bitter streets alone
with hands shoved in my pockets
kicking up rocks on dusty roads
and stirring up old emotions

chorus: But don't you see I'm already gone
all the while I'm still here
but my heart has already taken flight
to the place where it belongs

so while I'm here waiting around
in this empty body
I'm hurting people that I love
and turning hearts to bitter souls

I make the best of what I have
which is a lot, in itself
sometimes I forget all that I have here
and soon it will all disappear

chorus

"everything we'll never be"

Manicans in showroom windows
models of perfection
reminds us of what we'll never be
living lives of misery

Models put on billboard ads
not a flaw can be seen
but superficiality
haunts them in their dreams

chorus: We'll never be perfect
so why do we even try?
From facelifts to and boob jobs
to collagen in lips

It's all such a lie
fake smiles and a wave
inside we scream "go to hell!!"
outside we're filled with glee

Growing up in Barbie's world
with perfect cars and skin
we listen to the voice within
and know not what to do

We pride ourselves on looks
always too fat or too thin
nobody looks exactly right
so we starve our souls within

chorus

Instead of a handshake and a hug
we exchange the fakest grins
we walk on by and live a lie
fro jealousy always wins

We are a hopeless generation
bound for sorrows and regrets
do something to change it
before it is too late

more later, shower time now

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 23:21:00 GMT

here are more lyrics...

"Date and Mate"

Sometimes I get tired
of all these little ho's
who walk around, strutting their stuff
in skimpy little clothes

And the guys walking behind
who just stare at their butts
and rave about "who's gonna bang her"
because they all are sluts

Chorus: Here's how it works in the world today
You date 'em and you mate 'em
there's no roo for love in there
just pleasing and fornicatin'

What happened to taking it slow?
We'll do it when we're ready?
Do marriage vows mean nothing now?
There's no such thing as virginity, in the world of bangin' ho's

I miss the days of old
when people respected each other
no songs had lyrics with "slap them ho's"
and people liked each other

But now it's all a big ole' game
to see who gets laid first
who cares if I get STD's
if I made it pass first base

chorus

Call me old fashioned, for in ways I am
Call me what you'd like
but here's the plain and simple truth:
I'm waiting to say "I do"

"More then this Life"

Stumbling through these crowded streets
to work at a job I hate
running into person after person
with a replicated face

I set the alarm for 6am
at 3am this morning
for in this grueling life we lead
sleep is a deprivation

chorus: Don't hang your head so low
You'll only get a crick
and then instead of just hating life
you'll wanna cut off your neck

Walk with your head held high
and passion in your eyes
for beyond the appointment's and deadlines
lies a wonderful resting place

I know there's something more for me
I can feel it deep within
sometimes it isn't so clear to see
but I will when it all ends

I surrender myself
to the mercies of your hands
My life is simply in your control
and patiently I must wait

chorus

There's more to this life then meets the eye
ever so much more
and if you open wide your eyes
you will finally see

"Regrets"

The choices that you make
effect your every move
they shape the person that you are
and how you live your life

Make the wrong decision
and you could lose it all
but there are no wrong decisions
just diff-rin-ces of opinions

chorus: Is this the life you want to lead?
are you truly happy?
There's nothing that is stopping you
from changing your decisions

Do you sit and cry each day
from changes in your life?
or do you hold your head held high
proud of the work you've done?

All of us, we make mistakes
we all screw up in life
but some mistakes are unforgivable
and can change entire lives

Your life may be going well
and then, in the blink of an eye
your whole world comes crashing down
trapping you inside

chorus

Don't close your eyes
don't lock up your heart
everything can change
in just a minute

"Fairytale Dreams"

A love so perfect and so true
completely pure and beautiful
uneffected by jealousy and hate
never tainted and never blue

Sitting together, watching the sea
as moonlight dances across it
holding together in warm embraces
and stars replace the eyes

chorus:A perfect love does not exist
nor none come even close
but all the while, I still dream it
in make believe and fairytales

I see my girl there
walking out, upon the cool dark sand
I run to her and kiss her lips
and live happily ever after

I look into my lover's eyes
and I get lost within them
I breathe in my lover's kisses
instead of oxygen

She keeps me alive

chorus

I'll update more later, gotta go have a life now...yea, watching kids,haha

Opening

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 22:18:24 GMT

This is my second journal. I have another one that I actually write events down from my life in, but this one, I've decided, is going to just be for writing. Free writing, lyrics, poetry, music, anything at all. And anyone can comment and I will add you. I am posting some of my songs here now. The previous 10 or so are in my other journal, ocean_ave19, so check them out if you'd like. Also, if anyone puts music to lyrics or is in a band and looking for someone who writes lyrics and sings, then PLEASE contact me. Ok, here you go...

"Painful Reality"
For so long
I was walking in a dream
Where the streams ran clear
birds were singing in the air

The skies were always smiling down on me
with rainbow promises in every direction
a place where fights never broke out
and hearts were never shattered

Chorus: Now I've awoken
from the dream of no existence
and everything came down upon me
drowning me in the sea

I couldn't catch my breath
for something hit me in the stomach
and left me to die alone
my painful reality of it all

While I was walking in my dream
you were walking out the door
where my clearly flowing streams were
was where I saw your tears

The clear blue skies I saw
were actually dark and gray
and all the promises seemed so real
but each one you did break

chorus

the places that we never fought
were filled with deceit and lies
and hearts that never shattered
were made, instead, to cry

It's all so clear to me now
how deeply I was dreaming
I chose to see only beauty
until the painful reality hit me

My life with you was over

"In matters of the heart"

I am a dark and lonely soul
my life consists of nothing
inbetween my hidden lies
are pain and misery

At times I feel I can't go on
and I don't even want to try
for what is there to live for
with hearts that scream and cry

chorus: I love you
and you hate me
I am alone
and you are alive

I'm weak
tired
moody
and cheap

You don't know what it's like
to really be like me
and I have no idea
what it takes to be like you

So don't feed me that bullshit
that "you know just how I feel"
because you've lived inside this body
heard these voices, felt these emotions
you will never know

chorus

I'm cried out
though I cannot shed a tear
and I'm talked out
without saying a word

I'm dead
alive
crying out
and alone

Good-bye, don't wait for me

"Well that was a waste of time"

If I would have known from the beginning
who you really were
I wouldn't have taken a second glance
or even thought it through

If I had known from the start
the loser that you were
I think instead of smiling
I would have broken out and laughed

chorus: Gosh, what a waste of time you were
for when I was messin' with you
I could have had someone real
and true

Not someone like you
who would dare to cheat on me
someone who would love me for me
and not be so damn cheap

HA HA!

If you would've told me when we first met
that you were such a geek
I would have pat you on the head
and sent you on your way

(getting angry)..but no, you couldn't do that
you had to string me along
and pretend to be someone you're not
someone i'd wanna be with

chorus

(really mad)..So shut up!
and get out!
You're not welcome anymore
to see your face another day

will be too much for me to handle
you make me sick
the thought of you
makes me vomit

gosh, what a waste of time

"Isolation"

I need you to leave
things between you and I just can't be
nothing is right, everything's wrong
so go, turn and walk out the door

You should know that as I'm writing
my hand is trembling
and as i'm singing
my heart is breaking

chorus: Wait, don't walk away
Why are you leaving?
Can't you see I'm messed up here
don't listen to what I'm saying

hey, why are you walking back?
I told you to leave
I cannot see you anymore
go away, please

I'm not just doing this for me
I'm always thinking of you
there could be misery between the two of us
and never anything more

I'm just trying to help
because I love you so
our lives refuse to be easy
when we're in each other's arms

chorus

You'll find someone, we'll both move on
and it's not because I don't love you
for in this feeble heart of mine
there will never be "another"

You are mine, and I am yours
it will always be that way
but only in our sweetest dreams
could we live happily

chorus

Walk away
no, stay
leave, go
come back

my eyes are upon yours
inside I'm screaming

"Endless Joy"

I remember so clearly
the day I first met you
we'd sat next to each other for months
and never shared a word

But then one day, for whatever reason
we began to talk, so easily
as if we'd known each other
in endless memories

chorus: James, I love you so
you'll just never know
through the years we've grown so close
and you're in every memory I have

for the memories that I keep
are only good, not bad
and you are in each and every one
for you're where my joy comes from

We started hanging out
then seeing each other everyday
in class, at lunch, in church
so insepreble

You are the one and only person
I can truly confide in
and you know things others don't
how many laughs we've had

chorus

We've shared so much together
Harry Potter, Foo la la
The Notebook and Nicholas Sparks
I don't know what I'd do without you..

I love you James
I truly do
no one else is quite like you
you're a friend that's true

You're my shoulder to cry on
my hand to hold
my warm embrace
my perfect soul

"the one and only"

Daily struggles
take over my mind
they cause me frustration and confusion
bitterness and pain

This world is such a messed up place
I don't dare call it my home
for somewhere out, beyond what I can see
is an amazing place, waiting for me

Chorus: My troubles fade away
into the softest clouds
you see them and rip them apart
so I won't have to face a grief

You take my confusion, frustration and pain
and put it upon Yourself
never allowing me to feel
one ounce of pain

Your love is greater then all else
You shelter me in Your arms
And as you find my broken heart
you mend it easily

With just a stir of the wind
I feel Yout breath on me
and when it rains upon my face
I know it's Your tears for me

chorus

As I walk this sometimes lonely path
and often get discouraged
I stop and see the sunshine
shining through the clouds

And at that very moment
I know it's meant for me
to keep me walking on my path
and You will walk with me

You are creator
Giver
Lover
Father
with You, I'm never alone

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